Saturday, May 31, 2008

The Day My Life Becomes Black

I got a BlackBerry! A BlackBerry Curve 8300!

The day was May 26, 2008 which was Tuesday when I welcomed another member in my family - BoyBoy (the name I gave to the BlackBerry). BoyBoy joined alongside Hayden (my mechanical pencil) and Hayden Jr. (my 4Gb thumbdrive).

Haa..what a beautiful day, it was! Unexpectedly!

The reason BoyBoy was bought was beacuse my long-time companion, Motorola A780 was ailing and no shop was willing to accept it for repair, due to its hard-to-find spareparts. Well, that was the thing when you lived in a country that only called 'Nokias' and 'Sony Ericssons' as cell phones.

Anyhow, I'm so far beyond delighted for BoyBoy's presence because a BlackBerry is the ultimate gadget that I was so eager to get, from all the sparks and hoo-haas it made across the globe, and on Gossip Girl.

I'm contented, blessed, thankful and couldn't think of other things that I wanted to have, as much as I wanted a BlackBerry. I'm done on this part - so far.

Love you lots, BoyBoy!

Saturday, May 24, 2008

OMFG - Gossip Girl





"Spotted, K piously sitting in front of his laptop downloading episode after of Gossip Girl. You know you love me, XOXO"


God, I can never have enough of this! At least until now! I am shamelessly a GG addict and I have no plan of recovering from it. This show is totally awesome! I never thought I would be driven by this show although I've read about it on PerezHilton and my friends told me about their fondness for Blair or Serena or even the delicious yum-yum Nathaniel (Thanks Farra & Fa!).

For the start, who wouldn't be intrigue by the lives of the rich and famous in the Upper East Side of Manhattan? Their lives are full of drama, cat-fights, high-profile parents, struggles to be the ultimate talk of the town and to make things even better, they are all high school students (a private high school, mind you). Everyone knows each other and want to get a piece of who's whereabouts dish and their ultimate source is none other than the anonymous blogger of the Upper East Side, Gossip Girl.

So far, as I have only managed to watch up to the fifth episode, the storyline goes something like this - Serena is back to New York from a long hiatus which he kept secret from everyone and her return wasn't so welcomed by everyone, namely Blair Waldorf - Serena's best friend-turned-nemesis after Blair found out Serena used to have sex with her boyfried, the incredible Nathaniel Archibald - who's starting to fall for Serena after that one-shot thing.

So this show centers on the return of Serena and the questions she brings along - why did she left? Why does she come back? Does she has undisclosed intentions? Will she come back for good? Will Nate got Serena and dump Blair, or will the newbie Dan win Serena's heart? Will Serena and Blair be bestfriends again?

To quote Gossip Girl:
"The girls in the Upper East Side aren't always on top. They climb with their heels to the top. And honesty isn't always the best policy; at least in this zip code."

Go and watch it! Now!

Friday, May 23, 2008

I'm Still The Same Person - If You Take a Closer Look

As true as the saying goes, it's easier said than done. Pin-point this and that. Talk about so and so. The same things resonates day after day, year after year.

Above all of the things that you asked me, let me hand you just a question - would I wanted to hand over my life just to be destroyed if I knew what was becoming of me?

You told me how I had changed. Yes, from that small town boy to this (I quote) "unknown man". Yes, you told me you prefer me way back then than what I am right now, plus all of the issues and diseases I carry around with me.

But how come you didn't say it to me when I was still a "good boy"? Why didn't you hinder me from all the negativity if you truly care about me? To top it off, there has been only you in my life since nearly 6 years ago.

So, what's stopping you?

If I could see it coming, I wouldn't need any of your help, dear. I would be glad to vanquish all of the elements before it creeps up my back. But I didn't because I knew nothing and no one had told me.

I'm not telling you that this is your fault. I'm telling this because that's what I meant by "the existing gap" in our life. Yes, we seemed happy because we only allow ourselves to please each other, not to BE each other. So, to say that this gap exists because (I quote again) I "love too many people" was a distortion.

Yes, I may have played around, commit betrayal and do all the things that you gladly mentioned, and it was wrong technically because I was still yours. But in a way, I'm glad I did what I did because somehow it managed to divert your attention to me again. But what I did was absolutely wrong and I am ashamed and apologized for that part.

I have some other points here to say but it doesn't matter. Because one, I am bad at managing my talk and two, you probably won't be interested in hearing it. You are much into what you believe than what I say, right. It has been this way all these years.

That's another reason for the gap. Oh, well..

Thursday, May 22, 2008

This is the Best Briyani Y'all

To set the record straight, I was never a fan of briyani rice, bukhari rice or any other siblings the two have. Never. I found briyani as 'weird' and even if I attempted to eat it, the many spices and other ingredients thrown in are rather distracting they just turned me off.

Thus, I have given up hope on briyani...until this one came along.

This is the new breed/generation of briyani! And with less distracting ingredients and simpler rice! It tastes good as well!
The interior facade of the restaurant from front
The other specialty of the restaurant - sirap bandung. All of them ordered this except me, sticking strong to my nescafe ais. Hehe
This is my mom's plate en route to her journey of fulfilling her stomach's briyani quest
My sister, her husband and the sleeping brat also known as Aisy
Mommy and daddy dearest

Well,this one is in SS18, Subang Jaya with a big red signboard that reads "JM BARYANI HOUSE". You deserve a spank on the forehead if you ever missed it. Turned out,this place was even featured in Jalan-jalan Cari Makan on TV3 (because I saw the plaque on the wall..hehe)

The reason this place has successfully converted me into one of their devotees simply because of the meals. The curry they served (chicken, beef, mutton,..you name it) was so different from the stereotypical briyani that you find almost anywhere. It's simpler and surprisingly much more exquisite.

Just a tip if you're going there, DO NOT ORDER ANY A LA CARTE. Those a la carte dishes were, ehem, would not please your taste buds. Trust me. My sister, my dad and I have tried their nasi goreng kampung, bihun goreng and mee hailam respectively and all we could say was, "Stick to your briyani, y'all!"

Reminiscence: First Present

I was unpacking the stuff that I brought home from my hostel and while I was unloading my luggage and stuffing all of the clothes into my closet, I came across a piece of worn-out black cloth, which was proudly hung amongst all other spanking-new shirts and tees.

It turned out, the 'piece of cloth' wasn't just any piece of cloth. It was an old Armani Exchange t-shirt given by my special one way back in 2002. Almost 6 years has passed by and how I've grown up with this tee. Countless times I've put on this tee proudly including on one occasion in Central Market where my sugar and I wore matching black A|X tshirts, minus the different design. I even wore it to a singing contest back in my secondary school days! (I sang 'Fallin'' complete with a female Form Six student as my prop. How classy was that?)

What really made it special wasn't really the label nor the price. It was the first present given by my sugar to me, a sloppy, nerdy-looking kampung boy coming down to KL to meet a stranger whom he called boyfriend.

When I looked back, I was so amazed. How strong the love was, it made me travel down to KL - 256km away from my hometown, to meet and stay with a man he barely knew.

That was love. Pure, unconditional love from ME.

God, even I'm getting emotional from writing this.

Anyway, thanks sugar, for the tee and most importantly, the lessons you taught me, the time you have given me, the countless hours we've spent together and so much, much more.

What have ever happenned to us?

4 Most Beautiful Lyrics

9 Crimes by Damien Rice

It's such a beautiful song about the not-so-beautiful side of life. From my understanding of the song, the persona is caught up between the guilt of having an affair with another woman and the idiosyncrasy fondness which he felt for her, that led him committed such act. He somehow knew that what he was doing was wrong but it was just something that he had to do. Sounds familiar?
However, in the end, after he fought against the ironies (in the chorus), he admitted that everything was not supposed to be as what it turned out.
Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I do
It's the wrong kind of place
To be thinking of you

It's the wrong time
For somebody new
It's a small crime
And I got no excuse

And is that alright? Yeah
Give my gun away when it's loaded
That alright? Yeah
If you don't shoot it how am I supposed to hold it?

That alright? Yeah
Give my gun away when it's loaded
That alright? Yeah, with you?

Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I do
It's the wrong kind of place
To be cheating on you

It's the wrong time
She's pulling me through
It's a small crime
And I got no excuse

And is that alright? Yeah
To give my gun away when it's loaded
(Is that alright with you?)
Is that alright? Yeah
If you don't shoot it how am I supposed to hold it?
(Is that alright with you?)

Is that alright? Yeah
If I give my gun away when it's loaded
(Is that alright with you?)
Is that alright
Is that alright with you?

That alright? Yeah
If I give my gun away when it's loaded
(Is that alright with you?)
Is that alright? Yeah
You don't shoot it how am I supposed to hold it?
(Is that alright with you?)

Is that alright? Yeah
If I give my gun away when it's loaded
(Is that alright with you?)
Is that alright
Is that alright with you?

And is that alright? Yeah
(To give my gun away when it's loaded)
Is that alright? Yeah
(You don't shoot it how am I supposed to hold it?)

Is that alright? Yeah
(To give my gun away when it's loaded)
Is that alright? Is that alright?
Is that alright with you? No

He knew he was on the wrong side, he tried to make amend of it by realizing the mistakes and admitting it but it was too late to do so. Been there before.

Love is a Losing Game by Amy Winehouse


I immediately fell in love with this song after the first play ever. Not only because I adore this woman, this song is full of 'life' and the story-telling goes very well with the easy-listening, not soppy, melody. Listening to this song is like hearing to a very thoughtful advice given by a best friend about how love is a powerful thing and seemed so attractive as it comes along but in the end, you'll still end up getting hurt again and again.

For you I was a flame
Love is a losing game
Five story fire as you came
Love is a losing game

One I wished I never played
Oh what a mess we made
And now the final frame
Love is a losing game

Played out by the band
Love is a losing hand
More than I could stand
Love is a losing hand

Self professed... profound
Till the chips were down
Though you're a gambling man
Love is a losing hand

Though I battle blind
Love is a fate resigned
Memories mar my mind
Love is a fate resigned

Over futile odds
And laughed at by the gods
And now the final frame
Love is a losing game


Love, according to this piece, is nothing short of a useless game aside from how attractive it might look and all of its grandeur.

Uninvited by Alanis Morissette

You dream big. You hope for the best person in life to pop into your life and everything will be perfect. But somehow, when he/she arrives, you hold back thinking, "Am I ready for this?"

Like anyone would be
I am flattered by your fascination with me
Like any hot blooded woman
I have simply wanted an object to crave

But you, you're not allowed, you're uninvited
An unfortunate slight

Must be strangely exciting
To watch the stoic squirm
Must be somewhat heartening
To watch shepard meet shepard

But you, you're not allowed, you're uninvited
An unfortunate slight

Like any uncharted territory
I must seem greatly intriguing
You speak of my love like
You have experienced love like mine before

But this is not allowed, you're uninvited
An unfortunate slight

I don't think you unworthy
But I need a moment to liberate

This is the central idea of Miss Morissette's Uninvited where you are afraid to hand over your whole life to a person whom, ironically, you have been waiting for all these times. It just shows that sometimes the things that we desired in life are not always the ones best for us. The moment it arrives, your heart will go something like "Whoa, hold on" and then you realized, you don't really want the things you are longing for and you are better off without them.

Three Wishes by The Pierces

I really love this song! I absolutely think that this song is so brilliant because it was written by some small-time, true singer/songwriter. And the best thing about songs which were written by those people (including Amy Winehouse) is that, the song really comes from the heart and of what they believe.
Basically there's nothing in depth about this song. It discussed about the insecurities us humans have; how we wanted everything around us to be perfect and goes according to our plans - which didn't always quite turn out to be so. We believe that we are weak, fragile because of so, so and we somewhat have excuses to all the things that we do and didn't.

We'd be so less fragile
If we're made from metal
And our hearts from iron
And our minds from steel
And if we built an armor
For our tender bodies
Could we love each other
Would we stop to feel

And you want three wishes:
One to fly the heavens
One to swim like fishes
And then one you're saving for a rainy day
If your lover ever takes her love away

You say you want to know her like a lover
And undo her damage, she'll be new again
Soon you'll find that if you try to save her
It renews her anger
You will never win

And you want three wishes:
You want never bitter
And all delicious
And then one you're saving for a rainy day
If your lover ever takes her love away

You want three wishes:
One to fly the heavens
One to swim like fishes
You want never bitter
And all delicious
And a clean conscience
And all it's blisses
You want one true lover with a thousand kisses
You want soft and gentle and never vicious
And then one you're saving for a rainy day
If your lover ever takes her love away

The strength of this song relies on its melancholic yet sharp lyrics that stings those who understand this piece.